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Just received a call from Westhaven VA. I want to fly me out for one month for a PTSD study. They would put me up in a hotel while I'm undergoing treatment and observatio ... n two times a week.

The only drawback is: the study has to do with ketamine. One group will receive nothing, another group will receive a normal therapeutic dose and another group will receive a high dose. The infusions will take 45 minutes each.

My guess is they're hoping to ask you to recall painful events as they infuse the ketamine. Ketamine is a dissociative drug and can cause amnesia. I think they're hoping to induce traumatic recall memory loss.

The very thought of taking a drug that induces temporary paralysis and possibly hallucinations straps my anxiety to rocket engine.

As much as I would love to come see Patty E Harris , David Bolinsky lots of friends in Connecticut and on the Yale faculty I think the response cost would be way too high.

And, despite the fact that Yale medical school is the medical partner at the Westhaven VA, it's still the VA.